The Wall

The wall devilishly grey,

I made it myself; so strong, so high

Neither could I break nor could I fly

Not a wall of brick or stone

Made of intangibles

Fear, despair, angst

Left me cloaked

in a darkness infinite 

 

I perish here of

desolation,not

stronger enough to

shatter the wall, and let

the light shower my soul.

 

The soul craves for

the hallowed ray, for

someone to crush the

wall into dust, 

set me free,

show me the light.

Savior

In everyone's life there are one or more people who come as savior. They understood you, helped you, guided you, saved you from predicament and then gradually disappeared. Sometimes they do it of their own will; but most of the time we only forget them and push them into oblivion. They save you in many ways you can be saved. They extend their hands selflessly when you need them most and never ask anything in return.

Standing on the cross-road

Swept away in an opaque crowd

Or whirling aimlessly

In a neverending carousel.

Lost in a thousand ways,

Was looking for a way out

Failed attempts to fight a battle unarmed

Remained my voices unheard

Whilst lost in the darkness of daylight,

You showed a sunrise; new and bright.

Whilst running almost astray,

You showed the hope imminent in another day.

Holding your hand I stepped into the ladder

You smiled, watched me going up, my savior.

With a dream of million stars shining,

In search of rainbow, I kept on walking.

Glimpsing back in time, didn't I bother
You smiled, watched me going up, my savior.

Dream of dawn

Remember! That chilly winter night

I kept gazing at you,

Your countenance; serene yet bright.

Your eyes made a promise under the starry sky,

With the west wind blowing, to hold my hands forever.

A promise that touched my heart! 

A promise that made me cry!

I loved to be lost at your quirk,

To smile at the slope of your cheek

To dip at your thoughts umpteen

I loved you, no one else, my queen.

I loved you! And I love you

I hope you did too. Didn't you?

Our story bloomed like a flower,

Spread its fragrance, 

And withered silently in a whisper.

Though you are, no longer with me

I find you still, held in my arms, in my dream.

Dream!

Dream of dawn- fresh and vivid

Leaves me with a sweet unrest, and

A stark realization- it's just a dream

But I do hope!

I do hope my dream come true.

The dream I long

The dream of dawn!

I Surrender

""Some solitary moments in life hunt your mind with some incoherent thoughts which you can not avoid but only surrender to those. And you are left with an unbearable inner chaos.""

What am I doing?

I weep, tears don't come

I shout aloud, sound fades away

till it reaches my ear.

I surrender,

Letting my soul swim

in an ocean of absolute emptiness!

What am I thinking?

Tiring my mind

with thoughts and images, I despised most?

The moments die slowly,

Left me devoid of any inner silence.

I surrender,

Indulging myself in a sphere of

unbearable seclusion!

Those small little things !

Those small small little little things,

you brought me,

with love and affection,

Made my so many days.

Those little Hi and Hellos,

you uttered at odd times;

your voice full of life,

Made me wait till late at night.

Those all countless evenings,

you sat beside me at the riverbank

your whispers, your warm breath,

Made me hold your heart in mine.

Those all birthday celebrations

you were the first one to wish
your rhyme, your sing-song

Made me re-born again and again

Now though you are,
No longer there with me,

I'm lost somewhere,

Life was not so cool with me.

I sit by my window, I remember you,

I listen you, I see you, I feel you.

Echoes of your voice,

your scribbling on the wall,

your painted postcards,

your whispers,

countless converasations preciously archived,
. . . .. . . . . . .

Make me sail through my memories!